Angels – a series of sculptures
My wife, Anne-Sophie (AnSo), died on 20 May 2017.
For 4 years we had already lived with the diagnosis of cancer and the certainty of her imminent death.
4 years full of hopes and fears, grief, pain and love. 4 years of chemotherapy and hospital stays. But also beautiful holidays on warm islands and full of love.
After Anso’s death, I have settled both our homes and lives and travelled around the world.
On this trip I made first sketches of what the Angels were going to be.
Angels, because angels are fleeting beings who can walk between worlds and (perhaps) bridge the gap between life and death. Because they are beautiful, because they are better than us and because they can be played wonderfully creatively.
And because Anne-Sophie was my angel. During our time she taught me a lot and maybe made me a better person.
Now she’s gone, I’m still here. And 2 years after her death I find the strength to continue the project „Angels“ and to give it a meaning for me. This sculptures mark a small interim stand in September 2019.
In 2 years the Angels have experienced some changes. In the beginning there was only helplessness and pain and complaint.
Later, when the idea of „typographic wings“ was born, the texts were still quite self-pitying and lamenting.
In the further development of the sculptures I then tried to take a step back and formulate the texts in a more general way. Or to turn their meaning around in such a way that they exhort to live this short, small life in the best possible way, full of joy, lust, love and responsibility. I have experienced howquickly it can be over.
This sculpture is based on a charcoal drawing from my figure drawing class.During transport, another drawing left some black marks, which made me think of transparent wings. I changed the wings several times, both text-wise and formally, up to the final form and text. The oath that AnSo and I made and kept:
In good times and in bad
until death do us part
“In good times and in bad
until death do us part”
A classic marriage vow.
But it also applies to each and every one of us: body, mind and soul are firmly married. Divorce is not possible! So it would advisable to treat ourselves well. We have to endure it with ourselves, in good and bad times „until death do us part“.
„What would you do today if you would die tomorrow“
This Angel is the only one that was created during Anso’s lifetime. I shaped it when AnSo was in the hospice and was in a bit of a hurry because I wanted her to still see it.
It was a strange, unnameable feeling to watch AnSo in her hospice room fade away for days and weeks.
How life faded from a lively, athletic woman and how her radius of action became increasingly smaller until she didn’t even want to leave the little room.
How one of the smartest people I ever knew, through pain and strong medication, became less and less aware of the world and walked more and more in a shadowy realm, where she had less and less contact with me and the other visitors.
Like a beautiful flame that slowly fades. A fire that was vanishing, more and more ethereal, less and less „of this world“. That’s what I tried to depict with this sculpture.
The typographic wings were only added two and a half years later, when the series of „Angels“ was formed in its present form.
AnSo HAS seen the first 3D print and considered it good. But maybe she just wanted to be nice and encouraging, as she always was. After all, she advised me to become less concrete and detailed in the physical forms. That’s what I tried to follow.
If you were to die tomorrow, what would you do today?
Would you surround yourself with the people you surround yourself with today?
Would you do the work you do today?
Would you want to say something to someone else?
What would you do?
Why don’t you do it?
„Ein Mensch ist in seinem Leben wie Gras“
Here the text was provided, and I tried to design the sculpture accordingly:
The life of mortals is like grass,
they flourish like a flower of the field;
the wind blows over it and it is gone,
and its place remembers it no more
Psalm 103 – Verses 15-16
AnSo has quoted this text repeatedly in her diary and in her last short story and it has touched me every time. At first I resisted it and thought „Never! My flower, your place will always know you“. But it is not like that. Even if we, who loved her, keep her in our hearts: Her apartment has long since been newly rented, her job has long since been reassigned. The painful, open wound in my heart has closed, scarred slowly, bleeds and hurts less and less. And that’s probably a good thing…
If this is true, then we can only blossom as colourfully and smell as well as possible before the wind blows us away. And have fun with it.
„Remind yourself that you are already part of a larger story“
I sculpted „Remind yourself“ very close to the original sketch. Where even the text is already assigned to this special figure. The idea with the „winged typography“ did not exist at that time. The sketch was made in January 2018 on the terrace of my beach bungalow on Ko Lanta, Thailand.
I like to provide my sketches with „random“ texts, which can be heard on the radio, in podcasts, audiobooks, in the neighbourhood, or just in my head. This sometimes results in something that is better than I could have imagined. „Serendipity“, in other words.
So, to this day I don’t know in which context this sentence belongs:
„remind yourself that you are already part of a larger story“
But it seemed appropriate.
We are interwoven in a great net:
Horizontally with all the people we meet and influence and are influenced by.
Vertically with our ancestors, without whom we would not be, and our descendants, who would not be without us.
Perhaps we are not so important? Maybe everything is all right?
„War schoen mit dir“
The sketch for this sculpture was done in March 2018 during an anatomy course in Las Vegas, when we modeled a trapeze artist. Hence the floating pose.
Later I sculpted her, but she seemed very pathetic and I didn’t really know how to continue. So, she lay fallow for a long time, until the final text came to her.
„(It)was nice with you“
is a sentence AnSo must have left me a hundred times on one of her „tea bag pack letters“ after a weekend together. (We lived in 2 different cities until the end). I have always loved these letters, but now that nobody writes them to me anymore, I miss them even more….
If you wrote yourself a letter on your last day, would it say, „It was nice with you“?
No? Why not?
„Kann ich das nochmal versuchen?“
Rather a play on forms than a conceptual approach. Sketches and initial sculptures have joined together to form a new whole.
„Can I try that again?“ It’s such a classic phrase when we screwed up. I don’t believe in reincarnation. I don’t believe in previous or later lives. I think we have exactly this one attempt, one shot, to make something good out of our life. An invitation to live life in such a way that we don’t have to ask for a second attempt.
Im Rahmen der „Langen Nacht der Bilder“ werde ich am 06.09.2019 von 18-24 Uhr mein Atelier öffnen und meine neue Skulpturenreihe „Angels“ vorstellen.
Das Atelier befindet sich in der Kunstfabrik HB55 in der Herzbergstrasse 55 in 10365 Berlin in der 3ten Etage (Raum 3.34).
Nach dem Tod eines geliebten Menschen entstanden auf einer Weltreise Zeichnungen, Collagen, Scribbles, Texte und Ideen, die immer wieder um Frauengestalten, Liebe, Verlust, Schönheit und Vergänglichkeit kreisen und versuchen die Flüchtigkeit des Augenblicks und menschlichen Lebens in einem Moment voller Schönheit einzufangen.
Die Wellen des Meeres, spiralförmige Muscheln, welkende Blätter, ineinander verflochtene Pflanzen, flüchtige Wolkenformationen und andere Naturphänomene haben die dabei entstandenen Zeichnungen und Skulpturen inspiriert.
Sie tauchen in den Arbeiten immer wieder als wellenhafte, verschlungene, spiralförmige und sich auflösenden Formen auf, die sich zu den fraulichen Gestalten der „Angels“ verdichten, ohne jedoch allzu konkret zu werden.
I will open my studio on september 6th from 6pm to midnight for the „Lange Nacht der Bilder“ and show a new series of sculptures:“Angels“.
The studio is located in the Kunstfabrik HB55 at Herzbergstrasse 55 in 10365 Berlin on the 3rd floor (room3.34)
Inspirational ring “ Done is better than perfect“
This moment, when you should have published a song, a book, a blogpost, a new painting or a piece of software. But you didn’t, because it wasn’t perfect. Yet. And so, you took some more time to tinker with it. To not having to show it to the world.
It’s always easier to not finish something because it’s not perfect. Because if it’s not existent, it can not be criticised, ridiculed or rejected. But it also doesn’t exist!!!
I always find it hard to show the world something that I made. Because there is always something that could be improved. Something that could put off the moment you have to show up. To enter stage. To say: „It’s me. I made this “. Or maybe even: „I like you! “
In these moments the sentence “Done is better than perfect” often has helped me to go the next step, to show something, to hit that „publish now” button.
So, I made this little inspirational ring to be a reminder, a thorn in the flesh, if you will, to go the final step.
This reflects on the surface of the Ring: The letters create a rough surface that makes it slightly uneasy to wear it. It’s supposed to be a butt-kicker after all! A constant reminder to FINISH and SHIP!
Because once you Ship, once you publish, all uncertainties, all fears and nervousness will disappear. Now you can deal with the facts. And listen to feedback. And make it better next time.
I just released this beautiful pendant
It’s called „inner beauty“
Here are some thoughts on it:
…makes you grow
…makes you laugh
…makes you cry
In this pendant I tried to capture some of that beauty.
May it match yours!
New 3D printed candle holder
Future Artefact 003 – „The harbingers ship“
Future Artefact 003 – „The harbingers ship“ features intricate bionic structures that float around a mechanical, yet almost ornamental structure.
Found in the distant future, carefully excavated and restored, materialized with 3D printing technology, this archaic vessel now serves as a beautiful candleholder for the connoisseur.
Since my little Dragon cabinet handle was successfully crowdfunded on Kickstarter I was busy „shrinking“ my already published dragon doorhandle 10.
I had to shrink the handle to a smaller size and making some necessary adaptions and structural reinforcements for the 3D printed cabinet handles.
All my Kickstarter backers will get a limited edition of the Dragon cabinet handle in „polished nickel steel“, once the prototypes have been 3D printed to my satisfaction.
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